Throughout the day on most days, if my mind has a moment to spare, which is less likely on days that I am at work, I think of things that I want to write. I come up with ideas for a blog post, ideas for an essay, or I simply want to stop what I am doing and just write.
I was better about writing when I was in my early twenties. As an undergrad student, I would carry my journal in my bag so that I could write in between classes. There were times, if the lectures were boring and I felt confident that my printed notes or reading material would suffice, that I would write during class. It is probably why I never made any friends in my classes. I liked sitting alone in a corner where I could write, unless the class was actually interesting, of course.
Some of the things I wrote in my journal would make their way onto my old blog, the one I kept on MySpace (one of my biggest regrets in my life is that I blogged on MySpace instead of using a legitimate blogging site). I would translate my writings into posts that would make sense to others. I would translate them in such a way that I did not mind sharing. So much thought went into those posts. Sometimes, I would even include photographs or music or links. It felt fantastic!
I had more spare time back then, unless my week was crammed with exams. Even after I graduated and landed my first job, I wrote more than I do now. I continued to carry my journal with me and would lock myself in an office during my lunch break so that I could write undisturbed. Writing was my therapy. It was my drug. There were times that I felt crazy if I was unable to stop and immediately put my thoughts and feelings into words, onto paper.
I was also more creative back then and so full of ideas. Writing was my biggest creative outlet, but I also drew and made inspiration boards/collages. I also continued to hope to become even more creative. I had a guitar that I looked forward to learning to play, once my "study" time could be devoted to it instead of being devoted to earning a degree, and once I had enough money to pay for lessons guilt-free.
The point of all this is to say that I miss being creative. I miss journaling, I miss blogging, I miss drawing, I miss wanting to play an instrument, I miss letting my mind wander.
My journaling stopped because it became stupid. The things I wrote about eventually became superficial and writing was not very fulfilling. Then a certain someone read the damn thing and I stopped entirely, which was fine. Again, at that point, I wasn't writing about anything significant.
Blogging. This. I became discouraged from blogging when the people whose blogs I read stopped posting. And my readers stopped reading. The feedback became nonexistent. I partly blame MySpace because that site became completely obsolete. I had no one to write to or write for. If no one was going to read my posts, it made more sense to keep a private journal alone, and well, you know what happened there.
The frequency of my posts dwindled. I completely ceased keeping a journal. I stopped wanting to write everything down. So many events went undocumented. They were only partially documented on Facebook. Only tidbits of my experiences captured in photos and brief captions or blurbs.
I stopped drawing. I felt that it was pointless, but what was really ever the point? Other than the fact that I enjoyed it? Somehow, that stopped being enough. Geeze, Daisy.
Well, I am going to write more. I am going to blog more. I am going to keep a journal again. I will write in it, I will draw in it, and I will take photographs of my entries and share them here or maybe on my Tumblr or maybe both. I own an amazing camera and would be a much better photographer if I actually used it more. I have a set of calligraphy pens, which I will learn how to use. I have a sewing machine, which I will also learn how to use. Maybe I will even learn how to play that damn guitar of mine. Finally.
The big move that I have previously written about is happening on Saturday. This past weekend, I found a desk that I really like and I plan to buy it once we have moved in. I cannot wait to have a desk again. It may well become the center of my universe, the place where I can unwind and release all my creative energy. I feel that buying this desk may be the most important catalyst for making me a creative gal once more.
Equally as important will be for me to STOP spending so much time online. I admit that I tend to look to Pinterest, Instagram, and Tumblr for creative inspiration, but I focus so much on looking without actually doing. Isn't that absolutely silly? There should be less Facebooking as well. It's time to return to documenting things in a worthwhile, thoughtful manner.
If anyone reads this, please hold me to these things. Ask me for a photograph or an update on life and my thoughts and my feelings and everything going on in my brain. Ask to see my handwriting. Ask to see something that I sewed. Do NOT ask me to play guitar for you. That's bottom of my list and probably the thing I will be the worst at.
Have a perfect, sunshiny day and check back soon!
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Sunday, February 9, 2014
You can't spell February without eff
Eff you, February.
Here is my present goal: do not allow the stack and maze of boxes surrounding me give me anxiety. This is the worst part of moving. Packing in itself, but then having to live with the growing amount of boxes until moving day. I feel that my already small space is only getting tinier and it may very well make me a little crazy in these final days leading to our move.
This weather is also trying to drive me crazy. I have finally reached that point, y'all. I start off strong in November and December. In January, I convince myself that it is almost over and spring is just around the corner. Then we reach February and by that time, the cold just seems never-ending and I hate it. I long for warmer temperatures so badly, my spirit hurts. Uggghhh.
I really am at that point. I cannot handle all the layers of clothes. I cannot handle the grey skies. I long for the sun! I want to wear skirts and dresses without having my legs confined in tights. No matter how cute they may be, tights are still so confining! I want to run in my shorts again. I want to be motivated to run in the mornings. I want to want to (not a typo) spend more time outdoors. I want good ol' warm and hot Texas weather back.
I hate February so much. A while back, I mentioned my hatred of this month to Dustin, so he and I tried to think of things we could look forward to this month.
Oh well. I better carry on. A Chipotle burrito makes everything better.
Here is my present goal: do not allow the stack and maze of boxes surrounding me give me anxiety. This is the worst part of moving. Packing in itself, but then having to live with the growing amount of boxes until moving day. I feel that my already small space is only getting tinier and it may very well make me a little crazy in these final days leading to our move.
This weather is also trying to drive me crazy. I have finally reached that point, y'all. I start off strong in November and December. In January, I convince myself that it is almost over and spring is just around the corner. Then we reach February and by that time, the cold just seems never-ending and I hate it. I long for warmer temperatures so badly, my spirit hurts. Uggghhh.
I really am at that point. I cannot handle all the layers of clothes. I cannot handle the grey skies. I long for the sun! I want to wear skirts and dresses without having my legs confined in tights. No matter how cute they may be, tights are still so confining! I want to run in my shorts again. I want to be motivated to run in the mornings. I want to want to (not a typo) spend more time outdoors. I want good ol' warm and hot Texas weather back.
I hate February so much. A while back, I mentioned my hatred of this month to Dustin, so he and I tried to think of things we could look forward to this month.
- We started the list with the Super Bowl. That was a major disappointment.
- I added the return of The Walking Dead to the list. We shall see how things go tonight.
- There is still Valentine's Day. Dustin never disappoints, he's a total sweetheart.
- Then there's our big move. And the work that comes with it.
Am I being a Negative Nancy or what? Hahaha You just do not understand how much I loathe winter. It is the bane of my existence, each and every year. If winter were a person, I'd bitchslap it.
Oh well. I better carry on. A Chipotle burrito makes everything better.
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
You'll never feel happy until you try
This post was inspired by the following question I was asked:
So much of my confidence comes from the fact that I have convinced myself that I am in control of so many things. I have the final say in my own happiness, regardless of what is thrown at me. I make the choice to react the way I do, nobody else does. I choose how I spend my time and who I spend it with. I take matters into my own hands. I make mistakes and they are mine. I was in control of them too, I just didn't play them well. It happens. On to the next with a lesson learned and continued tenacity, preferably with a smile.
"Daisy, how do you stay so happy?"
Before I attempt to answer the question, I have to correct what it presumes. I do not stay happy all the time. I get sad. I get grumpy. There are days that I spend angry with myself, angry at others in my life, and angry at the entire world. I give myself time to be sad if I need to be sad. I allow myself to be grumpy and vent if I have to. Being angry is certainly okay in my book because it means I give a damn.
The key is not to dwell in these moments. Give yourself the time you need and move on! Bounce back. Let the negativity you feel encourage you to make changes or to speak up. Secondly, don't get grumpy over every little thing. Do not let insignificant matters or people make you sad or angry. The world is imperfect. Accept that and only worry about things that truly matter.
You cannot control all the circumstances that the world and life throw at you. I have shitty days. I have failed miserably. I disappoint myself and others disappoint me as well. The nature of the world, the process of disease, the inevitable progress from order to disorder. I am not immune to the uproar. You aren't either. Nobody is.
Control what you can control (which is a lot!). Build yourself a strong foundation of happiness. Even if life is smooth sailing right now, think of ways to be even happier! Do not focus on trying to be happy only when you're at a low. Happiness should be your priority at ALL times. This way, when things go haywire, you are already at a positive place and will be able to handle matters better.
Some things that I control and make me happy (you can control them too!):
- Sleep: At least seven hours every night. How can a tired mind make the effort to be happy? You need energy to do the things that must be done to be happy!
- Exercise: Easy. Health means happiness. Also, gotta love those endorphins.
- Relationships: Keep them healthy as well. Nurture your relationships with the people you love and care about. Do not worry about people who only bring you down. Surround yourself with happy people.
- Fulfillment: Make a difference. Be a positive influence on someone's life. I personally love animals and find fulfillment in my job. I also volunteer when time permits. When time doesn't permit, make a donation. Easy peasy.
- Do what you love: You may not love your job. Fine. Let's say that it takes 45 hours of your week (I've thrown time in for getting ready in the morning and the commute). Let's say you follow my advice and sleep seven hours a night. That's 49 hours in one week. Together, there go 94 hours of your week. That leaves you with 74! Precious hours to do whatever you please! Do not let them go to waste. Do things that you love... Paint, go outside, cook, run, read, listen to music, play an instrument, sing, dance, spend time with people you love.
- Look forward to life: Always have something to look forward to. Things in the immediate future like a birthday celebration, a weekend getaway, a daytrip, a reunion with friends, nice weather, a race (in the case of runners!). If I realize that I have nothing exciting planned for weeks, I make plans! My friends call me The Coordinator for a reason. You can also look forward to things in the distant future, even if you have no idea when they will happen. Marriage, children (not for me!), a degree, a new job, a dream vacation. Be excited about life!
- Focus: I mentioned this before, but it bears repeating. Do not focus on the little things. There are bound to be many and they simply do not matter. I step in shit in the morning. My hair is a mess. I get stuck in traffic. I forget my wallet. Rain ruins my plans. People are rude. I don't always get a lunch break. So what? It is all rather insignificant and not worth your time or worth messing up your mood.
- Give yourself some credit: Be your own #1 fan. It is not arrogant or conceited to acknowledge that you are a badass. Know your qualities. Don't expect others to recognize and list them for you. It's a bonus when they do, but you have to build yourself up first.
So much of my confidence comes from the fact that I have convinced myself that I am in control of so many things. I have the final say in my own happiness, regardless of what is thrown at me. I make the choice to react the way I do, nobody else does. I choose how I spend my time and who I spend it with. I take matters into my own hands. I make mistakes and they are mine. I was in control of them too, I just didn't play them well. It happens. On to the next with a lesson learned and continued tenacity, preferably with a smile.
I encourage you to try these things because they work for me. My life isn't perfect, it never will be. As I stated, I have failed time and time again. The world is one of opportunity, though. Life goes on and gives you options. My life didn't end in those moments of major suckage. It will not end until I take my final breath. In the meantime, I will take what opportunities I can and.... You guessed it, be as happy as can be!
The title of this post comes from the lyrics of the following song:
Listening to good music that perks me up is also instrumental to being a happy daisy. Dancing to it is the icing on the cake.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Pack, pack, pack it up
Is anyone else sick of this cold weather? I think that the worst part is the huge range in temperatures. It will be below freezing one day, 70 degrees within 24 hours, then back down to below 50, and everything in between. How does one dress for that? The outfit I leave in loses its appropriateness by mid-afternoon and it bothers all the lovely out of me.
Anyhow, this week, I started the packing process. With less than four weeks until the move, I figured it was time to begin. Lucky for me, we get supply shipments at work on an almost daily basis. Collecting cardboard boxes and packaging material is something I do not have to stress about. All my coworkers know that I'm moving soon and are kind enough to save boxes for me to bring home. So nice!
Thus far, packing is going well, although I have way too many books. I thought that packing all my clothes was going to be rough, but I was wrong. It's all these freaking books! I have set aside a stack that I no longer want. I haven't decided what to do with them, though. Donate them to a thrift store? Sell them to Half-Price? Have a yard sale? Having a yard sale is very tempting because there are a number of other items that will not be making the move with me. Why not make some extra cash? Sunglasses, clothes, shoes, hats, belts, dvds, knick knacks, jewelry, and yes, books. Too bad this darn weather isn't very inspiring! We shall see.
Packing is the not-so-fun part of moving. Planning the furnishing and decorating is so much better! Dustin and I will actually be purchasing a new bed! We have already ordered the frame (along with a dining table) and will order the mattress soon. We also got a great deal on shelving while looking around Loew's over the weekend. We were in need of extra shelving given the aforementioned massive collection of books I own. I think all that's left is finding desks. He needs one for his computer and gaming setup. I need one for all my crafting, writing, and studying. Our place is going to be so cute and cozy!
I even had a special calligraphy print made for our place, but I don't have the framing for it just yet. As soon as I do, I'll post a picture of it. It is so perfect for us!
Back to cleaning, organizing, and packing. Only 23 days to go!
Yes, the title of this post is a reference to Lil Jon. To the windooooooow....
Anyhow, this week, I started the packing process. With less than four weeks until the move, I figured it was time to begin. Lucky for me, we get supply shipments at work on an almost daily basis. Collecting cardboard boxes and packaging material is something I do not have to stress about. All my coworkers know that I'm moving soon and are kind enough to save boxes for me to bring home. So nice!
Thus far, packing is going well, although I have way too many books. I thought that packing all my clothes was going to be rough, but I was wrong. It's all these freaking books! I have set aside a stack that I no longer want. I haven't decided what to do with them, though. Donate them to a thrift store? Sell them to Half-Price? Have a yard sale? Having a yard sale is very tempting because there are a number of other items that will not be making the move with me. Why not make some extra cash? Sunglasses, clothes, shoes, hats, belts, dvds, knick knacks, jewelry, and yes, books. Too bad this darn weather isn't very inspiring! We shall see.
Packing is the not-so-fun part of moving. Planning the furnishing and decorating is so much better! Dustin and I will actually be purchasing a new bed! We have already ordered the frame (along with a dining table) and will order the mattress soon. We also got a great deal on shelving while looking around Loew's over the weekend. We were in need of extra shelving given the aforementioned massive collection of books I own. I think all that's left is finding desks. He needs one for his computer and gaming setup. I need one for all my crafting, writing, and studying. Our place is going to be so cute and cozy!
I even had a special calligraphy print made for our place, but I don't have the framing for it just yet. As soon as I do, I'll post a picture of it. It is so perfect for us!
Back to cleaning, organizing, and packing. Only 23 days to go!
Yes, the title of this post is a reference to Lil Jon. To the windooooooow....
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Ten Things by Paul Baribeau
Name ten things you wanna do before you die and then go do them.
- Run a marathon
- Indoor skydive
- Go to a music festival
- Swim in the Pacific Ocean
- See whales in the wild
- Get married
- Learn to sew
- Become fluent in French
- Foster more animals
- Zip line
Name ten places you really wannabe before you die and then go to them.
- Paris, France
- Venice, Italy
- New Orleans, Louisiana
- Chichen Itza
- Dublin, Ireland
- The Pacific Ocean
- Kyle Field
- Cloete, Coahuila, Mexico
- Bruges, Belgium
- Home
Name ten books you wanna read before you die and then go read them.
- On the Road by Jack Kerouac
- This Side of Paradise by F. Scott Fitzgerald
- To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
- Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison
- The End of Faith by Sam Harris
- Where'd You Go, Bernadette by Maria Semple
- The Lord of the Rings [the entire trilogy] by J. R. R. Tolkien
- Crime & Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky
- Mr. Darcy's Diary by Amanda Grage
- Born to Run by Christopher McDougall
Name ten songs you wanna hear again before you die, get all your friends together and scream them.
- Destiny by The Rocket Summer
- Mamma Mia by ABBA
- Yesterday by The Beatles
- Ron con Coca Cola by Mister Chivo
- Belle from the Beauty & the Beast soundtrack
- Photosynthesis by Frank Turner
- Lookin' Out My Back Door by Creedence Clearwater Revival
- Querida by Juan Gabriel
- Praise Chorus by Jimmy Eat World
- Skies So Blue by The Rocket Summer
Because right now, all you have is time time time.
Yeah, but some day, that time will run out.
That's the only thing you can be absolutely certain about.
Yeah, but some day, that time will run out.
That's the only thing you can be absolutely certain about.
Think of all the things that are wrong with your life and then fix them.
- I do not spend enough time with my friends and cousins.
- I am too attached to my smart phone.
- I need to be more creative.
- Not enough reading is getting done.
- I do not get enough sleep.
- I need to satisfy my wanderlust.
Think of all the things that you love about your life, be thankful you are blessed with them.
- My parents
- My happy, healthy relationship with Dustin
- Great friends
- Cousins cousins cousins!
- A wonderful job
- The opportunity to help animals
- Running
- My mermaid hair
- Balance
- Being compassionate and cruelty-free
- My adorable fur babies
- A free mind and heart
- My health
Think of all things that hold you back and realize that you don't need them.
- Worry
- Apprehension
- Naivety
- Wastefulness
- Fear
Think of all the mistakes you have made in your life, make sure that you never repeat them.
- I was not focused.
- I became distracted.
- I let fear get the best of me.
- I let what others thought bring me down.
- I did not speak my mind.
- I was not myself.
Because right now, all you have is time time time.
Yeah, but some day, that time will run out.
That's the only thing you can be absolutely certain about.
Yeah, but some day, that time will run out.
That's the only thing you can be absolutely certain about.
Name ten thousand reasons why you never wanna die, go and tell someone who might've forgotten.
- There is so much left to learn.
- There is so much left to see.
- There is so much left to hope for.
- There is so much left to fight for.
- There are friends to be made.
- I have too much love to give.
- I have energy!
- I want to keep smiling!
- Animals are always doing cute things and I do not want to miss them.
- I do not want to stop exploring.
- There are so many adventures to go on.
Try to list the endless reasons why it's good to be alive, and then just smile for a while about them.
- The sun
- Picnics
- Swimming
- Laughing
- Friendship
- Love
- Animals
- Beauty
- Kindness
- Hope
- Flowers
- Trees
- Books
- Music
- Art
- There are compassionate individuals.
- "All the wondrous things that mere mortals can achieve."
- Changes and progress can happen.
- Love will prevail.
- Freedom
- I can do whatever I want.
- Money does not buy happiness.
- Wealth is measured by the relationships you keep, the difference that you make, the time you can devote to substantial causes.
Soon the sun will rise and another day will come.
Soon enough the sun will set, another day will be gone.
And right now, all you have is time time time.
Yeah, but some day, that time will run out.
That's the only thing you can be absolutely certain about.
Yeah, but some day, that time will run out.
That's the only thing you can be absolutely certain about.
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Another year, more daisy days
I am not really one for making New Year resolutions. I am the type that thinks of goals throughout the year and works on them as time permits.
For example, in the spring of 2013, I thought I would try the Insanity workout. I made it through four weeks before realizing that it was not very fulfilling or enjoyable. Halfway through the year, I decided to train for a half-marathon. So I did. In August, I chose to switch to a vegan diet. Done. Three months ago, I finally ran that half-marathon.
Earlier this month, I resolved to run a full marathon by spring 2014. I have been completing my training runs diligently. I also decided to re-learn the French that I once knew and pick up even more. I have downloaded a few apps on my phone and picked up some books in order to get that going. In the creative realm, I am continuing to practice photography and trying to pick up calligraphy. Pinterest and YouTube each offer a wealth of helpful tips for both. These are all ambitions from late 2013 that will be carried into this year. I also want to start sewing, something that I resolve to pursue once I move and have a space dedicated to this endeavor.
As always, I want to be kind, loving, patient, forgiving, and happy. Those are everyday goals that never change, though. They are the same characteristics I have made an effort to possess my entire adult life. I feel that I pretty much have them down now and only stray occasionally. Still, the effort has to made daily, more conscientiously on some days versus others.
Yes, I am looking forward to this year and all the accomplishments and adventures that will come with it. Life is so exciting, it never stops being so. If you set goals not only now, but continuously, you will always have something to look forward to and life will be thrilling and rewarding!
Get to it, folks, and have a happy 2014!
For example, in the spring of 2013, I thought I would try the Insanity workout. I made it through four weeks before realizing that it was not very fulfilling or enjoyable. Halfway through the year, I decided to train for a half-marathon. So I did. In August, I chose to switch to a vegan diet. Done. Three months ago, I finally ran that half-marathon.
Earlier this month, I resolved to run a full marathon by spring 2014. I have been completing my training runs diligently. I also decided to re-learn the French that I once knew and pick up even more. I have downloaded a few apps on my phone and picked up some books in order to get that going. In the creative realm, I am continuing to practice photography and trying to pick up calligraphy. Pinterest and YouTube each offer a wealth of helpful tips for both. These are all ambitions from late 2013 that will be carried into this year. I also want to start sewing, something that I resolve to pursue once I move and have a space dedicated to this endeavor.
As always, I want to be kind, loving, patient, forgiving, and happy. Those are everyday goals that never change, though. They are the same characteristics I have made an effort to possess my entire adult life. I feel that I pretty much have them down now and only stray occasionally. Still, the effort has to made daily, more conscientiously on some days versus others.
Yes, I am looking forward to this year and all the accomplishments and adventures that will come with it. Life is so exciting, it never stops being so. If you set goals not only now, but continuously, you will always have something to look forward to and life will be thrilling and rewarding!
Get to it, folks, and have a happy 2014!
Saturday, December 28, 2013
Looking back and forward
Holy crap! I forgot how much I love Shiny Toy Guns.
You aaaaaaaaaaaare the one. You'll never be alone again.
You're more than in my head. You're more.
The year is practically over. Another calendar year and I am still alive and still excited about life and the future. I have much to strive for and much to look forward. I am so thankful that my joie de vivre remains intact. My goodness, I dread ever losing it!
So the upcoming year will come with a major change: Dustin and I have been approved for our new place and will be moving in early this year! After four years of dating, it's about time it happens. We are both thrilled and are busy making plans for the move-in. My mom has already gifted us a washer and dryer. A new bed and television are next on our wish list. Hopefully, since we are both off from work the next few days, we can start looking.
I am somewhat nervous about us living together. I have always either lived with family or lived by myself. I have never had a friend as a roommate, much less lived with a boyfriend. We have spent so much time together in the last four years, though, that we know each other well enough to understand what we are both getting into.
I hope I don't drive him crazy. I hope that we are able to give each other space when we need it. I hope my critters don't piss him off (how could they? They are just little bodies of love!). I hope that we treat each other as equals just as we have in the last four years. I hope that we both respect one another and are responsible for each other. I hope our home is filled with love and joy and the making of happy memories.
Ah, I am so excited! Now if only this cold weather would go away!
You aaaaaaaaaaaare the one. You'll never be alone again.
You're more than in my head. You're more.
The year is practically over. Another calendar year and I am still alive and still excited about life and the future. I have much to strive for and much to look forward. I am so thankful that my joie de vivre remains intact. My goodness, I dread ever losing it!
So the upcoming year will come with a major change: Dustin and I have been approved for our new place and will be moving in early this year! After four years of dating, it's about time it happens. We are both thrilled and are busy making plans for the move-in. My mom has already gifted us a washer and dryer. A new bed and television are next on our wish list. Hopefully, since we are both off from work the next few days, we can start looking.
I am somewhat nervous about us living together. I have always either lived with family or lived by myself. I have never had a friend as a roommate, much less lived with a boyfriend. We have spent so much time together in the last four years, though, that we know each other well enough to understand what we are both getting into.
I hope I don't drive him crazy. I hope that we are able to give each other space when we need it. I hope my critters don't piss him off (how could they? They are just little bodies of love!). I hope that we treat each other as equals just as we have in the last four years. I hope that we both respect one another and are responsible for each other. I hope our home is filled with love and joy and the making of happy memories.
Ah, I am so excited! Now if only this cold weather would go away!
Sunday, December 15, 2013
Exciting times!
I just had an incredibly busy, not restful at all, weekend. It was productive, though, so I am happy.
Friday night after work, I had dinner and went to a couple of stores with Dustin. I was exhausted because I woke up extra early to run a few miles before going to work that morning. I was out before 10 pm. Total old lady status.
Saturday, I woke up dark (the sun wasn't out yet) and early for the North Texas Great Santa Run 5K. The race was supposed to begin at 8 am, but I think it was delayed because of the rain. When we made it to the site, the volunteers and sponsors were only beginning to arrive and set up. I picked up my Santa suit then waited with Dustin in his car for the race to begin. Jocelyn met up with us and we ran the race together. I love running 5Ks with her! We run at the same pace and we get a lot of chit chatting done! We also crack up at all the other runners. Not in a mean way, mind you. The 5Ks that we do are usually "fun runs" with people all decked out in crazy costumes. That's usually what we laugh about... how crazy and daring some people are! We had fun. We definitely need to do these 5Ks more often. It had been much too long!
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Dustin and I spent Saturday afternoon driving around looking at apartment complexes. We stumbled upon one by complete chance. I know we had driven past it before, but we had never really noticed it. The leasing office was open so we stopped by, talked to the leasing agent, and got a tour.
The complex seemed very nice. First of all, it's pet friendly and has a lot of green space for walking Canelo Dog. It also has a huge pond with fountains in the middle of it. There's a bridge that goes across the pond that takes you from the front of the complex (where the leasing office is) to the "recreation area" (where the pool, hot tub, picnic tables, and volleyball court are located). There were ducks in the water and I just know that I could sit out there and watch them all day! I love ducks!
The unit with the floor plan that we chose is on the second floor, which is great because we won't have upstairs neighbors making noise. Underneath the living room is our car port and underneath the dining room is our neighbor's garage. This means that I can stomp around in those rooms as loudly as I want to and not receive any complaints! Freaking fantastic! Not that I am much of a stomper, but I do love to dance and work out, which can get pretty noisy. It will not be a problem, however!
I could also work out in their fitness room, but it has limited equipment. Although it wasn't very spacious, it has a treadmill for me to get some runs done when the weather gets in my way. If that fitness room doesn't cut it for me, there are gyms right down the road that I could possibly get memberships at. We'll see.
Oh! One of the best features is that Belt Line (with all its shops and restaurants) is just a short walk or bicycle ride away. Dustin and I need bicycles. End of discussion.
Needless to say, we both really liked this place and decided to take some applications home with us.
Enough about the apartment (I'll get back to it) and on with the rest of Saturday. Dustin and I went back to his place, read more about the apartment complex, chilled for a little while, and were picked up by Heather and Tee to go to Dave & Buster's.
About a month ago, I planned a holiday party for everyone who has worked or is currently working at the SPCA of Texas. I thought it would be a good opportunity for us all to meet and reunite. The party had originally been planned for last Saturday, but because of the ice storm, we had to reschedule for last night. Unfortunately, this meant that a lot of the invitees did not show up. No matter. Those of us who made it had a great time! I could go years and years without seeing these people (in some cases I had) and pick right back up where we left off. I love my SPCA people!
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| SPCA gals! |
We ended up staying at Dave & Buster's pretty late. As a result, Dustin and I went to bed late and slept in this morning. As soon as we got out of bed, we started filling out the apartment applications. After a quick bite, we headed back to the complex that we liked so much to turn the applications in.
The leasing agent was busy with another potential resident when we arrived so we left to check out the area some more. Target wasn't very far so we stopped by. We killed time looking at televisions (we're hoping to buy a new one!) before heading back to the leasing office.
We finally turned our applications in, were told which unit would be held for us, and set up a move-in date! We happened to apply while they have a special going on so our rent will be about $65 cheaper than what it should be. Score! All we have to do now is wait to find out whether or not we get approved. Dustin is anxious about it. He just wants to have it approved and know that we will have a place to go to when his current lease is up.
I feel that so many exciting things are happening right now. I got a raise at work last week, I am finally getting a 401K going and saving for retirement, I was approved for vacation time to make a trip to Mexico next month, I am on track with my marathon training, and after four years of dating, I am moving in with my boyfriend.
These are the types of things that excite me. Events that mean progress in life. Holidays, birthdays, and anniversaries are just one-day events that end so quickly, they seem unworthy of built-up anticipation. Events that are life-changing? That's what I live for. Those are worth the anticipation and enthusiasm. They make me genuinely happy because they're not fleeting.
I am so thrilled, I'm tired. Time for bed!
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Bring it on down to Veganville!
Last week, I passed the three-month mark as a dietary vegan. That's one-quarter of a year! No eggs, no dairy, no lard, no hooves, no bones, and, obviously, no meat.
For the most part, it has been easy and extremely beneficial. I have tried to diet before, but you put a bagel, ice cream, a milkshake, a donut, a cupcake in front of me? Suck it, diet. Since going vegan, though, I have avoided all those things. I guess it's more meaningful now. It is not about weight loss or health, it is about my own humanity. And it is working.
The hardest part about a vegan diet? Not being able to eat at the places that everyone else goes to. "No, I'll just sit here while you all eat" or "How about we go here instead?" or "I'm not ready to order, I am checking your ingredients on my phone."
It is all part of a learning curve, though. In these beginning months, there is so much for me to learn. Once I know which restaurants have vegan options, what ingredients to look for, which questions I should ask, it will all come naturally to me and will therefore be a lot easier. I cannot wait to have this shit down!
I am still in the midst of transitioning into a completely vegan lifestyle outside of my diet, though. I feel that I am doing remarkably well so far. I am being practical about it, because that is simply more affordable. I am waiting to use up the products that I have now and looking forward to replacing them with vegan products. Makeup will take the longest because I do not wear much of it on a daily basis. Ah well.
Anyhow, with beauty products, it's important not only to check that they do not contain animal-derived ingredients (hint: lotions and moisturizers contain animal fats and urine), but also to be certain that the manufacturers do not test on animals (horrible!).
Things I have already had to replace:
Yes, some of the products are more expensive than their non-vegan counterparts (this is the reason I am not completely diving into a full transition and doing it gradually instead), but I do feel that it is worth it. The products last a while anyway and an extra buck here and there is not going to hurt me as much as non-vegan manufacturers hurt animals. It is simply a matter of perspective.
So love and compassion to you, folks. Let's make this world a better place for all!
For the most part, it has been easy and extremely beneficial. I have tried to diet before, but you put a bagel, ice cream, a milkshake, a donut, a cupcake in front of me? Suck it, diet. Since going vegan, though, I have avoided all those things. I guess it's more meaningful now. It is not about weight loss or health, it is about my own humanity. And it is working.
The hardest part about a vegan diet? Not being able to eat at the places that everyone else goes to. "No, I'll just sit here while you all eat" or "How about we go here instead?" or "I'm not ready to order, I am checking your ingredients on my phone."
It is all part of a learning curve, though. In these beginning months, there is so much for me to learn. Once I know which restaurants have vegan options, what ingredients to look for, which questions I should ask, it will all come naturally to me and will therefore be a lot easier. I cannot wait to have this shit down!
I am still in the midst of transitioning into a completely vegan lifestyle outside of my diet, though. I feel that I am doing remarkably well so far. I am being practical about it, because that is simply more affordable. I am waiting to use up the products that I have now and looking forward to replacing them with vegan products. Makeup will take the longest because I do not wear much of it on a daily basis. Ah well.
Anyhow, with beauty products, it's important not only to check that they do not contain animal-derived ingredients (hint: lotions and moisturizers contain animal fats and urine), but also to be certain that the manufacturers do not test on animals (horrible!).
Things I have already had to replace:
- Facial wipes: Replaced old Neutrogena wipes with Burt's Bees Facial Towels. They work just as well!
- Nail polish remover: Replaced store brand remover with Mineral Fusion Nail Polish Remover. It's oily, but smells much better and does the job well!
- Shampoo & conditioner: Replaced Herbal Essences with Organix Argan Oil of Morroco shampoo and conditioner. This brand, Organix, makes a large line of products to suit different needs. There are products for dry/damaged hair, products for oily hair, products for flat hair, etc. You have quite a number of options, which I love!
- Hair anti-frizz spray: Replaced John Frieda with Organix Brazilian Keratin Therapy Shimmering Keratin Oil. It keeps the frizz away and makes my hair shiny! I love it.
- Face Powder: Replaced Cover Girl powder with Physician's Formula Mineral Wear Talc-Free Mineral Face Powder. Nothing special or different about it in comparison with Cover Girl, but it is vegan and cruelty-free so I dig.
Yes, some of the products are more expensive than their non-vegan counterparts (this is the reason I am not completely diving into a full transition and doing it gradually instead), but I do feel that it is worth it. The products last a while anyway and an extra buck here and there is not going to hurt me as much as non-vegan manufacturers hurt animals. It is simply a matter of perspective.
Probably the easiest part of my transition is fashion. I have never been a big fan of leather (I despise the way it smells!) so I already own a number of vegan shoes, purses, and jackets. I have donated a coat and skirt made with wool and leather belts to an animal rescue (at least the cruel clothes will benefit animals in the end, right? Stickin' it to the man!). No angora, cashmere, fleece, nor feathers for this gal. Fur? Forget it! It is all so disgusting and sad.
Although my clothes are fine and I do not have to make too many changes to my wardrobe, I think my goal in this realm will be to shop only from fashion lines that are entirely vegan. I have already purchased combat boots from Michael Antonio and they are fabulous!
I am happy about finally being fully cruelty-free. I have loved and respected animals since I can remember. You know how much we emphasize that all humans are equal? That is exactly how I feel about animals. A cow, a chicken, a goat, a fox, a mouse, a rat, a pig, a sheep, a fish... All are as special as your dog, your cat, your horse. They are all intelligent. They experience fear and loss. They simply want to live. They deserve so much better than what is handed to them for the comfort, convenience, and egos of human beings.
So love and compassion to you, folks. Let's make this world a better place for all!
Sunday, November 24, 2013
After the Befores
I did it. I was that girl home alone on a cold Saturday night who had nothing better to do than Google "most romantic films". No shame. Google can be such a good friend. It tossed a nice list of fifty suggestions with a film coming in somewhere in the teens that piqued by interest.
Before Sunset filmed in 2004, starring Ethan Hawke. Since I am being brutally honest here, I will admit that I chose this one because of Ethan Hawke. He was my first crush ever, you see. I have been an animal lover since I was itty bitty and seeing this guy befriend a wolf in White Fang back in the early 90s was absolutely amazing and impressive.
I read the blurp about Before Sunset and was made aware that it was actually the sequel to an equally applauded film released in 1995 called Before Sunrise. Before Sunrise made the list as well, it was just a few spots down. The blurp about Before Sunrise mentioned that it was the first film of a trilogy. Whaaaaat? As it turned out, Before Midnight was the final installment, was just released this year, and also received positive reviews.
A trilogy following the romance of two characters spanning almost twenty years of their lives? How cool is that? And all were well-reviewed? I downloaded all three films at once and knew I was in for a long night.
In the first film, the two characters were both in their early twenties and both adventurous and clueless about their futures. They were passionate, they were free, and they desperately fell in love. They were total romantics, they were curious, and they were transparent. "That's the way to fall in love," I thought. It made me sad that smart phones, emails, and Skype didn't exist back then. Then again, isn't that what made love so romantic then? How it survived time, distance, and silence?
The second film picks up nine years after the first, with both characters now in their early thirties. Love did survive, but not without damage. Jesse, the male character, says that nobody will ever be everything you want in a partner. You just have to commit and the ability of two people to do so is what matters in relationships. Celine, the female character, talks about how foolish it is to expect relationships to be as passionate and exciting as they are at the beginning and that such a constant state of excitement could be dangerous and distracting. She then states how it is better not to romanticize so much. She continues to dream, but not in regard to her love life. Ugh.
The third film. They are now in their early forties and life has gotten the best of them. Celine has not aged as gracefully as Jesse and she is burdened by the fact that family life has usurped the life that she was in the process of creating for herself. Jesse keeps trying to have "unemotional and rational" conversations with her, which drives her up the wall. Celine then realizes that it is not only family life, but also her relationship that is stopping her from being her true self. She eventually comes to the conclusion that she is no longer in love with Jesse.
All three films made me think about my own relationship, where I want to be as an individual, and where I want to be as a romantic partner. I am one of those persons who is guilty of wanting my relationship to be as exciting as it was at the beginning. I want to be romanced and constantly have butterflies in my stomach, even though we are way past that point. I know I need to stop. I know it's irrational, but I am also that woman who hates having to be rational. I especially hate being told to be rational. Just don't - don't do it. [laughing] Let me be a dreamer and a romantic forever!
When the third film opened, I thought, "Oh no! I don't want to be old and have huge thighs and be bored!" How superficial of me. Well, I definitely do not want to be bored, but more importantly, I don't want to stop being myself and I don't want to fall out of love. At one point in the film, Celine lashes out at Jesse because she is tired of having to be the nurturer in her family. He then tells her to nurture herself for a change. Of course! How can you be a good partner if you cease to take care of yourself?
And will I really be bored, though? It's exciting to grow and to change and to evolve. And it would totally suck not to watch this person who you have invested so many feelings into do the same. How can life become boring if it is constantly changing, if we are constantly changing? I do think it's important to not give so much to a relationship that you lose yourself and your own aspirations in doing so. I think this will be less of a problem for us since we won't be having kids, though. Huzzah!
I also realize that I over-analyze things and that love can be simple. Oops.
All in all, these are not your typical romance films. They are real. They are very well written. They are thoughtful and thought provoking. It does not matter what point of a relationship you are in - single, dating, engaged, married, divorced, widowed - you should watch these films and learn what you can from them. I will not go into details about how it all ends, what happened in between each film, or even where each film was set. That's for you to see. You will be glad that you did. I certainly am.
I am sorry if I rambled and that this post is all over the place. It is life imitating art because that's what Jesse and Celine did in all three films - they rambled. :)
Much love.
Before Sunset filmed in 2004, starring Ethan Hawke. Since I am being brutally honest here, I will admit that I chose this one because of Ethan Hawke. He was my first crush ever, you see. I have been an animal lover since I was itty bitty and seeing this guy befriend a wolf in White Fang back in the early 90s was absolutely amazing and impressive.
I read the blurp about Before Sunset and was made aware that it was actually the sequel to an equally applauded film released in 1995 called Before Sunrise. Before Sunrise made the list as well, it was just a few spots down. The blurp about Before Sunrise mentioned that it was the first film of a trilogy. Whaaaaat? As it turned out, Before Midnight was the final installment, was just released this year, and also received positive reviews.
A trilogy following the romance of two characters spanning almost twenty years of their lives? How cool is that? And all were well-reviewed? I downloaded all three films at once and knew I was in for a long night.
In the first film, the two characters were both in their early twenties and both adventurous and clueless about their futures. They were passionate, they were free, and they desperately fell in love. They were total romantics, they were curious, and they were transparent. "That's the way to fall in love," I thought. It made me sad that smart phones, emails, and Skype didn't exist back then. Then again, isn't that what made love so romantic then? How it survived time, distance, and silence?
The second film picks up nine years after the first, with both characters now in their early thirties. Love did survive, but not without damage. Jesse, the male character, says that nobody will ever be everything you want in a partner. You just have to commit and the ability of two people to do so is what matters in relationships. Celine, the female character, talks about how foolish it is to expect relationships to be as passionate and exciting as they are at the beginning and that such a constant state of excitement could be dangerous and distracting. She then states how it is better not to romanticize so much. She continues to dream, but not in regard to her love life. Ugh.
The third film. They are now in their early forties and life has gotten the best of them. Celine has not aged as gracefully as Jesse and she is burdened by the fact that family life has usurped the life that she was in the process of creating for herself. Jesse keeps trying to have "unemotional and rational" conversations with her, which drives her up the wall. Celine then realizes that it is not only family life, but also her relationship that is stopping her from being her true self. She eventually comes to the conclusion that she is no longer in love with Jesse.
All three films made me think about my own relationship, where I want to be as an individual, and where I want to be as a romantic partner. I am one of those persons who is guilty of wanting my relationship to be as exciting as it was at the beginning. I want to be romanced and constantly have butterflies in my stomach, even though we are way past that point. I know I need to stop. I know it's irrational, but I am also that woman who hates having to be rational. I especially hate being told to be rational. Just don't - don't do it. [laughing] Let me be a dreamer and a romantic forever!
When the third film opened, I thought, "Oh no! I don't want to be old and have huge thighs and be bored!" How superficial of me. Well, I definitely do not want to be bored, but more importantly, I don't want to stop being myself and I don't want to fall out of love. At one point in the film, Celine lashes out at Jesse because she is tired of having to be the nurturer in her family. He then tells her to nurture herself for a change. Of course! How can you be a good partner if you cease to take care of yourself?
And will I really be bored, though? It's exciting to grow and to change and to evolve. And it would totally suck not to watch this person who you have invested so many feelings into do the same. How can life become boring if it is constantly changing, if we are constantly changing? I do think it's important to not give so much to a relationship that you lose yourself and your own aspirations in doing so. I think this will be less of a problem for us since we won't be having kids, though. Huzzah!
I also realize that I over-analyze things and that love can be simple. Oops.
All in all, these are not your typical romance films. They are real. They are very well written. They are thoughtful and thought provoking. It does not matter what point of a relationship you are in - single, dating, engaged, married, divorced, widowed - you should watch these films and learn what you can from them. I will not go into details about how it all ends, what happened in between each film, or even where each film was set. That's for you to see. You will be glad that you did. I certainly am.
I am sorry if I rambled and that this post is all over the place. It is life imitating art because that's what Jesse and Celine did in all three films - they rambled. :)
Much love.
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